Longing

Oh how I long to talk, see, or hear you voice. It has been 3 1/2 month since I was able to see your beautiful face. Shortly after I lost you, the first thing I did was pull back all voice mails I had on my phone from deleted so I could hear your voice agaain. But to text you or call you is something I so think about doing from time to time. Never imaged losing you could hurt so bad. I am trying to live a normal life or atleast carry on my day to day activities. I know you are up there watching over me just like you did when I was a child, you want to make sure I'm making the right moves, and I'm trying to. Well, all those time I agrivated you about not sleeping- I'm living the wake up in the middle of the night life now. I felt better blogging when you were receiving chemo treatments, so I believe I will go back to this. It maybe nothing more than how much I miss you today or how my day is. Love you MOM and miss you tremendously.